I miss them already, sure i miss them

It's too scares me, my head is dizzy, my hand shake, runny face, unstable feeling, my temperature increase, my blood stream so fast like the common cold come

I go afterward from the circle, the bench
I didn't realize what i want to speak, but that's all outomaticly come out from my mouth

Exactly,I didn't know that vocabularies yet, but i still speaking until 7 minutes left or maybe more

I speak, realizing again, i speak
I read the strategy from the bench

There are "other side people" still sit on that chair, made a square path, they're all writing whole things on their note, the sticky notes, red, blue, green, highlighter and all different colors help them to find the important thing to be circled, to be conveyed, to rebut

Im so so lack of energy, like i walk on the air on my way to the chair, back, not speaking again, just hear
I bearing all that speech, no attention, no im done
Watching the judges write down all of our speech
I try to wonder how bad my speech was
But im relieved, sure it's the best feeling ever

My head is so full, so their voice was like a humming birds

I hope it wouldn't bad and not too good, but middle of it
2nd place was a miracle
4th place was terrible
1st place was ghost

This is mostly happen, happen all the time when i used to feel in this position
No im not alone, im with my friend, she try to ignore all the problem inside me, she was cheering me, but im not sure i can go through her mind

Aaah i miss them already, i miss
All the relieve after giving speech with "a strange vocab"

Luxury, famous it's identic
 all practices paid off
even im not bringing the trophy, i reveiled, im done, the best feeling, this is the best.